Sometimes I get down on myself, and for really, really dumb reasons. I’m blessed to be part of two families that are filled with amazing people. They’re all well-traveled, intelligent, hilarious, in-the-know on everything, skilled in the kitchen, years ahead of trends and fads, super artistic, and really awesome go-getters. I lay in bed some nights thinking about how great all of them are and how much I want to be more like them. But some nights that leads to the inevitable checklist of all the things that I will never be able to do as well as they can.
Add to that blogs and Instagram, with all of the amazing-ness of so many talented people on display - people I know well, and people I don't know at all. Most (ahem, SOME) days I am able to choose to be inspired rather than discouraged, and some (ahem, MOST) days it’s a slippery slope to comparison. Anyone with me on this? I think I’ve talked about this a few times on this blog. Obviously it’s something I am working on in my life. Anyone else? Please tell me I’m not the only one!
Last night was one of those slippery-slope nights. I knelt down to pray after about an hour of being down and frustrated with myself. Before I could even start praying the Lord seemed to say to me, “Let’s get something straight, Tally: Does any of that stuff matter? Are you going to take any of that with you when you’re done on this earth? Am I going to want to see your interior decorating skills? Is there going to be some kind of fashion show that I don’t know about? Will it matter how many pairs of jeans you have? Am I going to analyze your pie crust? Is there a qualifying marathon time? Do I care how many times you’ve been to Europe? Do I even care about that stuff? NO. So, get over it and focus your time and thoughts on what really matters, what I care about. Stop wasting all that energy on comparing and get doing my work!”
It seemed very strong, almost reprimanding, but very loving. What I love is that Heavenly Father knows not only what to say to us when we're discouraged, but he knows how to say it so that we'll listen and remember it.